i think i'm becoming from bad to worse. my mood's really bad these few days. have been scolding vulgarities alot more times than before. oh man, i seriously need a change in attitude. CHANGE.

anyway i shall leave this blog to stagnate until after all the tedious things are over. which is just two more weeks only. i guess i will be less busy by then, hopefully. but the sad thing is, i will miss sports day and maybe jubilate too! please let there be no training on that day..

meanwhile, hang on there everyone! :) i know this term's super hectic. but i really hope you guys are coping well. jiayou jiayou! :D

haha i'm finally online again. school's very busy as usual. got to know my PW group ytd! haha i think my group's okay.. at least i have zhou qian with me! (hao leng, hao leng! XD) hope we will be able to work well tgt :) anyway after my ccas ytd, rushed to town to have dinner at swensens' for dajie's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) and happy birthday to jocelyn too :) heh. and they laughed at my outfit again -_- what's wrong with it man! no time to change okay... and stop calling me auntie!!!!! rarrgh so irritating. ohwell. had fish & chips set and talked for awhile. then we had a birthday surprise for dajie, done by the staff there. they made her hold a balloon and stand on the chair. and we started singing the birthday song in three languages. it was so loud that everyone who walks past stopped and stared at us. i bet dajie felt super malu ;) hahah. and it so happened that the table next to us was celebrating another person's birthday too. so the worker asked us to join them and sing birthday song for them. it's so...... haha. anyway we started cam-whoring alot which made those in the queue who are waiting for seats glare at us. heh but overall it was fun and memorable! we havent had an entire clique outing since i dno when. haha i miss you guys loads! :DDD

GROUP PHOTO! :D (MY LOVE)




SINGAPORE VISITORS' CENTRE. lol.

a super blurred photo of us at the station platform. time to say goodbye :(

and i wonder when will i be able to see them again :/

SNSB BRAVO :D

silver :) well done to all sn bandits! i'm so proud of you guys. we know you have done your best, so no regrets okay. and there's no one to blame, cos this year's standard is too high. so, great job everyone! :D

anyway, i took two hours to go to SCH this morning when actually i could have just taken the train down to tanjong pagar from pasir ris. haha stupid right. ohwell. during the bus ride there, phy got a call from one of the brasses saying that they havent reached yet when it's already a few minutes past 9 and they're supposed to report at 9 sharp. then everyone of us who were with her, and that includes xiaojia, renette, christina, michelle, jasmine, christina, melissa and me, began panicking and made lots of noises. i think we were even more worried than the brasses themselves. but luckily the woodwinds were there to report on time. phew man. anyway we practically ran to the hall from the bus stop cos we were too nervous and found that they were still in the tuning room. shueli, belinda and peizhen joined us. listened to two bands play before st nics and took a quick look at the judges. out of the seven of them, there are only two asians. haha. when it was THEIR turn to play, i could feel my heart beating damn quickly. it's like even worse than after i've finished my 2.4km run. haha. and i was squeezing both of my hands super tightly, saying prayers. their merry widow sounded better than the sunrise. but overall their performance was great! didnt screw up alot of parts. then after that went out to talk to them for awhile and listened to the rest of the bands play. mieoteng and huiqing came before the results. and finally the moment we've been waiting for. we were clutching each other's hands damn tightly when they read our school's name. there's only one gold and one COP. the rest i didnt really pay much attention cos my mind was filled up with different kinds of feelings after they announced. when i turned and looked down at the whole row of sec fours, i saw most of them tearing. natural reaction. i think our sch people always cried the most. that time also like that. haha yup. but i didnt really know what to say when i saw some of them crying so badly. i guessed the only thing i could do then was to console them silently. but i'm glad it's all over alr :) xin ku ni men le.

anyway after sending them off, me, mt, huiqing, melissa and shueli went to a nearby food stall to eat. then we headed to plaza sing for free ben & jerry's ice cream! super yummy :) the queue was super long and most of them were people wearing sch uniforms. i saw wendy there! ahahas almost couldnt recognise her when she called my name. yup and we went back to school after that.. went to look for mr lee for my PI again and heng he didnt ask me anything about my absence. haha. then tkd training till seven plus. reached home and came online at eight plus. talked to two people with two completely different feelings about today. and.... i dno how to say lah. anyway hope you will get over it soon yeah? :) i'll be there to support you guys for jubilate again! wahahah.

okay shit it's like so late now. i'm supp to do my phy tutorial but i totally didnt feel like doing it. so i came to blog instead. die i'm so screwed. ahh BYE.

ahh i cant stand it. i cant stop myself from not doing the stupid PI and think about their SYF tmr!! i'm feeling nervous/excited/scared/anxious/worried all at one go now! cant believe i'm ponning school just to watch their syf and the worst thing is i dont have an excuse letter to explain why i'm going to be absent
-_- hope that he doesnt find out that i'm not in school at all lah.. haha. which i highly think is impossible. nvm i shall not care about all these alr.. TO ALL SN BANDITS: JUST DO YOUR BEST, WE WILL BE THERE TO GIVE YOU ALL OUR SUPPORT! DON'T LOOK AT THE JUDGES COS IT'LL ONLY MAKE YOU MORE NERVOUS. i tried it before during the previous syf. i took a quick glance at them and i think i missed playing one or two notes as a result. haha oops. okay, GOOD LUCK EVERYONE! i'm praying hard for all of you, pray that God will shower you guys with lots of luck tomorrow and let there be miracles happening! GOGOGO AND JIAYOU ALL THE WAY! :D :D :D



SB UNITE WE'LL SHOW OUR MIGHT, WE'LL SHOW THEM HOW OUR PEOPLE FIGHT :)

principal-parents session was as usual, long and boring. my mum says mr chan looks like a ball -_- hahaha. almost fell asleep when he's talking. so i just kept fiddling with my phone to keep me awake. after that i went to accompany my mum at the concourse. she refused to talk to my tutor at first but in the end i forced her to go. hahaha. and they started talking about dunno what university courses and that i havent made up my mind on what i'm going to take next time blah blah. wasnt really listening lah. the background was too noisy. renette's dad catered all the food again! haha. it's always great to have her around ;) anyway after that my mum fetched me and cheryl to PP for lunch. she commented that cheryl's very guai. haha. and so we slacked around for awhile. ate the cinnamon sugar pretzel from auntie anne's! i love it alot, wahaha :D walked quite a distance to MP library and attempted to study for chem lecture test on mon. but we failed cos we didnt have very good seats. super uncomfortable and i almost fell asleep while reading. so we headed back to school and waited at the concourse until our turn. actually time passes quite quickly lah. maybe it's becos i'm too nervous or smth. but anyway, i screwed up the interview, as usual -_- i was interviewed by the vice pres, justin, yew chin and janice. they asked super alot of questions. and i think i just kept going out of point. haha ohwell, it always turns out like this lah.. guess i shouldnt be feeling upset if i'm not in. haha. but some of the questions were really dots. i heard from liting that when she just took a chair and sat down, they asked her "why did you choose to sit here?" like o.O?! heng i didnt get that question man.

syf's nearing! wonder how they're doing now. i shall start to pray hard for them. jiayou jiayou :)


btw i dunno why i cant tag some ppl's blog! arghhh what is wrong with this com again. alamak..

BLACK FRIDAY!

heh but today's not really a suay day for me.. the lectures and tutorials were super boring again.. and i dont know why, i just kan bu shuang the maths lecturer! i want the previous one back :/ but i think she is on maternity leave alr.. sob sob. which means i will face him for another few more months! oh man i cant imagine. keep wanting to fall asleep during GP lesson. but PW was not that bad. cos we kept ourselves occupied by playing some lame primary school games and some chinese 'lian ci' game. then i realise i havent been speaking much mandarin and worse still, not writing any chinese characters ever since jc started! almost everyone's english-speaking here.. except for a few.. haha but most of the time we still communicate in english lah. think next time i will have difficulties writing a chi compo alr.. haha.

anyway went to visit uncle koh after school! today's our second visit. followed him down to the coffee shop for his dinner. and he actually treated us to our food! omg i felt so bu hao yi si can. how can we like let him pay for us when his monthly spending is so limited. so after that, me and cheryl went to ntuc to buy some stuff for him. sat at the coffee shop for almost an hour. but honestly, i felt rather uncomfortable there cos around us were people who are smoking. it's so suffocating sitting there can. breathe in too much bad air alr :/

principal-parents meeting tmr. cant believe that they actually made it compulsory for us to be present too. think it's abit waste time cos it doesnt really concerns us also right.. hai ohwell. and i have interact exco interview at 3 tmr also. which means that i have to stay in school for 4 hrs while waiting for my turn.... hurr. the thought of interview reminds me of noms last time. it's always this part that pulls my everything down. i know my oral skills totally cannot make it one.. just hope that their questions wont be too demanding :/

it's confirmed that i'll be skipping sch on tuesday to watch snsb's syf performance, 9.30am at SCH. but i'm actually skipping the most important day of the week cos it's where all the impt lessons are on. and i still have to rush back to school for cca after that. heh but i shall not care cos it's the last time i can see this badge of people playing. other than jubilate which i'm still not sure if i can go for it anot.. okay anyway i have heard about some of the other schs' results here and there. especially those that drop from GWH to silver and those that got GWH, where currently only two schools got it. the judges this year are so damn super strict man. i really dont know how our band will perform. havent been looking at their progress recently.. just hope that they will do the best that they can. SNSB jiayou! dont let us down :)

okayy off to work on my PI now.. rarrgh this is my third draft alr.. hope there wont be too many mistakes again.. haha.

tkd grading today! this is the first time i woke up so early on a sunday -_- asked my dad to fetch me to tp control station to meet up with the others. reached tp sports hall at around 715. and guess what, alot of them there are kids and there were even some who are not even five years old -_- then we felt damn malu and wanted to hide our faces. haha. waited quite long before the actual thing starts. did some stretching outside the hall first. oh man it's so difficult to punch and kick with the gi on lah. felt abit restrained. haha. we did the pattern in groups of 7. there were a few groups of super young kids before us. we sat there and watched them and started laughing. they are damn cute lah. when they were sitting down beside us, staring at us with those super big and round eyes, i really felt like squeezing their cheeks can! wahahahahahaha THEY ARE SO CUTEEEEE! cannot stand it alr XD haha okay.... why am i overly obsessed with them..... anw the entire pattern thing lasted i think at most for one minute? there is only like one judge to grade seven people at the same time. i wonder how he does it and somemore while we were doing, he keeps talking to the person beside him -_-
after grading we stayed in the hall for awhile to watch people do sparring. it's only like less than one minute of kicking for the green belts. the higher belts have a longer time limit. i saw this pri sch girl kicking a smaller-sized boy so roughly lah. she kicked him alot of times and gave the boy no chance to attack. in the end he had to push her back with his hands. poor thing. looks so much like the girl's bullying him and he's trying to defend himself by pushing her away. haha.

went for CHC easter service ytd. the drama performance was okay lah.. just that some scenes were repeated from last year. but they added something funny inside this time, haha :)
anyway oh man i just found out that pikachu ru loves HSY! she keeps saying that he's very cute -_- blue robes better loh. green robes = HSY. hahahahahahahaha i cant stop laughing. jellybeans sucks :D

alright since no one is replying me... i shall blog about what happened during these few unlucky days :/

i totally hate this week. it has the worst things that can ever happen to me. on monday, me and cheryl were suddenly put in charge of this international understanding project done by interact club. and ever since then i haven't had a good rest till now and i don't know when will this whole thing end. on top of this, i still have to redo my PI. all thanks to the computer which corrupted at such a GOOD timing. all my files and songs are gone lah. like wth i really want to kill myself can. and on the most top of all these, i can only go home at 7 plus everyday cos of cca. and abit i still have cca today. on a Good Friday O_O and tmr i have to go back to school to paste posters and go for church service after that. and on sunday i have tkd grading early in the morning. rarrrgh i'm so tired. really tired. why am i so unlucky :/ nevermind i shall not complain anymore cos i realise wei's as worse as me, or even more worse than me. wanted to blog about class bbq/chalet ytd but all these have taken my mood away.. at least thats the only thing i enjoyed this week. suzanne, cherish, dom and darryl were there! miss them loads :) sister still asked me why am i not smiling at all and i said i thought i smiled and laughed alot alr. hurr even someone who doesnt know the state i'm in now could tell that i'm not happy.

feeling super pessimistic now. life cant be any suckier than this. i wonder how long more can i hold on. hopefully things will be better next week :/

URGHHHHHHH. ahhh i hate this project!!! it's killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!! let me vanish from this world please.

STRESSED :/







i'm trying hard. trying not to break down. not at this moment please.

argh since mt tagged me...... i shall write six weird things about myself :/

1) i have a super spastic smile. okay everyone has been telling me that and making fun of me since sec one! >:/

2) i tend to smile to myself and am-chio out of nowhere.. when people ask me why am i smiling to myself, i will just say 'nothing' but actually i'm really smiling at something lah.. just that it's so random that it shouldn't be mentioned ;)

3) i can sit in front of the computer for more than ten hours playing what? maplestory. yes, i used to be super crazy over that game. i can even wake up as early as 5am in the morning just to play (haha mao knows it xD). at the end of the day my eyes will be very tired and my body will be aching all over. i know your reaction will be SIAO LEH. now coming to think of it, i think it's very, very life-wasting. haha that's why i quitted! so you all should feel happy for me! hooray! siao -_-

4) i hate pineapples. i hate them alot! this is so opposite of my dad. he loves pineapples and always forces me to eat. everytime he pushes a plate of pineapples to me, i will say EEW immediately and refuse to eat them no matter what. then he will stare at me with the o.O face and ask 'why don't want to eat? so unhealthy one..' and he will take one and put it into his mouth right in front of me -_- and i will just go yuck man. but on the other hand, i love to eat pineapple rice and pineapple tarts! haha. at least they dont carry much of the original taste, so it doesn't matter :)

5) i'm a very stubborn person. once i've made up my mind, i won't change it unless there's something or somebody who is er... powerful enough to change it. haha -looks around

6) and finally, i may seem that kind who has no temper and can easily be bullied O_O but actually, let me reveal the secret............. i'm totally the opposite of what i am when i'm at home. i have such a hot temper that at times, no one in the house can stand it. and i tend to pick up fights with my brothers cos all of us refuse to give in to each other, especially when it comes to using the computer. wahaha i know it's damn childish, so big already still fight over stupid stuff.. heh but seriously, i find it funny or even fun sometimes. at least this makes life more interesting at home lah. if not we will just do our own things and seldom talk to each other about our own lives >.<



haha okay done. actually some of them are not weird lah. but whatever, i cannot think of anymore liao. i'm sure you all can help me list more lah.. i know i've shown my weirdness to most of you before. haha and i shall not continue the chain cos...... lazy. hahahahahaha.